I think it’s interesting that you feel like you can fix the relationship, just like your previous show title, “I can fix it.” It sounds like you really miss being in the role of a daughter. I think it’s perfectly fine to feel that way. It sounds difficult and like you wish there were a way to reconstruct that relationship. I think it’s important just to completely and fully acknowledge all your feelings in the situation. I don’t think you have to necessarily fix anything just because you feel a certain way, but just allow yourself to have those feelings in an uncomplicated way. I think it’s natural that you would also want reassurances from Ben as the situation all revolves around feelings of abandonment and worrying about what is the best thing to do. Hope you are feeling better! I also laughed a lot at the thought of the poop burrito.